Sleepless Nights

Trapped between awake and asleep
Always conscious but thoroughly unaware
I lay here and stare into the darkness of the night
Hoping for tranquility and wishing to slip into repose

Body tired and worn out from the demands of my day
A mind that will not stop scrutinizing that day
I want to leave this day behind
To slip deep into an unconscious sleep of forgetfulness

No more anxious thoughts or plaguing details
I yearn for a comforting rest from this world
A break from my conscious mind
To no longer be taunted by it

Silence within
Eyes closed I wait and pray for this feeling to come
But alas, more of the same
Rapid fire of incoherent thoughts

When will I rest?!

Remorse

Hardened by my thoughts
At first unthinkable fantasies
Suddenly harsh realities of what I have done
Surprised to find myself in this state

Figments of my imagination
Evolved into rehearsals in my mind
Action preceded by thought
Life given to a crime against self

Numb to the world
Stunned by my actions
Longing to rouse from this dream
Yet tied down by perceived reality

The icy cold breath of remorse
Unable to change what I’ve done
Unprepared to face the consequences
But determined to be honest

Forgive me please……………..

Inner Conflict

Two different men
The man I am and the man I want to be
One a slave to his limited reality
The other a slave to his limitless dreams

Nothing special about either one
Unsure which one I like more
Which one should I dismiss?
Who should I be?

These two men look and sound alike
but want different things
Who will prevail?
Who will roam the streets?

I pray for the strength to be the better man
The man my heart aspires to be
Not the man my flesh desires me to be
Miserable man that I am, weak in this flesh

Oh, to bind my reality with my dreams!
A harmonious balance of aspiration and existence
Who I am and who I want to be coinciding
Absoluteness In all its glory

This life of Mine

This life I lead at times in vain
One day to the next, always full of pain.

Groping and searching for something to hold.
One minute its this the next minute its old.

Wanting width and depth and height
but constantly failing because of the fright

Wanting the love and closeness of another,
but constantly running from all of that clutter

I never said I loved you, how'd that get in your head?
I feel the need to tell you, and you fill up with dread

Someday his heart will melt is what you say you Pray
I say this ice is solid and don’t think it will sway.

I wish you'd understand, I am what I am
Stop with all your whining cause I don’t give a damn

It’s not that I don’t love you its only that I’m scared
Scared to let you see the misery and fear.

This life of mine is ruined and someday you will see
that I was right in saying..................... You're better off without me..............

A good old fashion FART POEM :)

At times I am strong and leave you amazed.
The sheer force and the power leaves you in a haze.
The vibrating effect of my thunderous applause
Will have you thinking you're choking on gauze.
At times I am soft and smooth as can sound
But once in the air leave all with a frown
Though sour and vile is what comes to mind
Its almost like music straight from my behind.
Sometimes in a trickle sometimes in a slew
Sometimes I'll just point and say it was you
Sometimes like a splash sometimes like a snap
Sometimes you will wonder, Did your ass just clap?!?!

To my Friend Who's getting Hitched too a Puerto Rican Chipmunk

I know that we argue and know that we fight
I know that you scratch and you know that I bite
You know I'm sarcastic, I know that you scream
Our powers combined, We make a Great Team!